To Be As We Are

I absolutely love my blog, like really really love it.  I love it for a lot of reasons but the main one for me is that it is a record of the really great times we have.  Mostly I focus on the positive and the funny side of our lives together and it is a great way to look back on things and reminisce about us at Casa De 'G'.  It's so easy to forget the tiny little details that I unknowingly capture when I write here.

Something I am newly coming to terms with is that I have readers.  Before I moved my blog off-site from the forum, I felt safe in the knowledge that only my fellow members had access to the often private details of our lives and my thoughts.  I was sheltered and things were a lot more controlled and contained.  I felt free to just write whatever I wanted, when ever I wanted.  I know when blogging in any kind of public forum that I have to be prepared for an audience but I suppose it is was easy to convince myself that nobody cared enough to look, after all; it's just me. When I moved offsite I felt even safer and more anonymous than ever so I opened up a little bit more, but something unexpected has happened - I have readers.

At first when the scant few were trickling through it was Ok, I figured it was all anonymous people who didn't know me and were just looking for a distraction.  Like reading a fluffy magazine, not expecting anything substantial but happy to get lost in the trivial mundane writings of a bored housewife.  I was happy with that connection and it sat well, no problem-o.  But now I know that they aren't always anonymous people, it turns out there are those who know us making there way here from both the present and the past. At first it really ruffled my feathers,  I was going to scour my blog and remove anything that could identify us - delete - delete - delete! Then I really thought about it and realised I would have to move my entire blog and I would have to do an awful lot of 'sanitizing' to ensure nobody could find us. Was it going to be worth it? 

I came to the conclusion that ultimately it doesn't matter.  I have nothing to be embarrassed about and when I spoke with Callum about it this morning he seemed quite pleased that people were Googling his name and arriving at my blog.  Really, if I didn't want anybody to read about what we do then I never should have published my blog for the public to read.  I did it because I am proud of us, proud of our family and I just love writing for my little space I have here.  It's not much but it is mine; the cheapest therapy I have ever had; a sounding board, and it helps me focus on the great things that happen with Mr Psyche and the Psychettes (could call them psycho's but connotation people...)

I love having readers, I'm not sure why but it is a buzz to know that someone gets a kick out of this. I also love the comments & emails, they make me laugh and also make my day! Some things are taking a little getting used to but in the end its just good to be as we are - no matter who is looking.

   

Comments

[moonie]

I absolutely love your blog too!!!!

[Quackamole]

Its like there is a bard, a traveling minstrel in many of us, and we need to sing our song in the town square!

Q.