Failure To Launch

This body building gig is quite exciting and all, but I am really feeling like I have failed to get into it with the bang I expected. 

I did my first weights session on Saturday which was brilliant and I loved it (can't wait to do my next one today in fact) but the food is a sticking point.  Don't get me wrong I am loving what I am eating, its the overwhelming urge to eat crap at the end of the day that is killing me.  Day one finished up with a foray into the world of Glucojel jelly beans and last night we were at an engagement party.  Although I nibbled on the healthiest of foods I just knew I was eating too much.  Then when I got home, not content with simple overeating I went ahead and  ate another one and a half protein bars, chased by a bowl of sugar free ice-cream topped with lite chocolate sauce and peanut butter.  Just a light snack ... heh...

Now I know this is only day three and these things take a while to kick in but I really really REALLY t r u l y  don't want to dick around, self sabotaging and wasting my time.  I admit I am one to love my food so I have allowed for one 'unclean' meal out of my six in a day, I just have to stick to the plan.   It's not like I don't know the plan like some secret agent on a need-to-know basis, I wrote the damn plan!

And I want to stick to the plan - god knows I am sick of looking at my dimply arse and large thighs.  So today I have resolved to make this day the day I stick to my menu, eat my macros and start building some positive training habits.  Maybe I just need someone to come and staple gun me to the floor so that after 8pm I am immobile - unable to blindly stumble into my kitchen, mouth open, wharfing anything I fall on to (which incidentally always seems to be some kind of fat laden chocolatey goodness - never that stick of celery).  Or maybe I should  wrap everything that is bad for me in stalks of celery with the rule that I have to eat all the celery on the outside before I get to eat whats inside, once the sun goes down celery is like some kind of repellent to me so that just might work.

Nope, whats going to work is my steely resolve.  Today I am putting on my Super Hero outfit and I am going to start being the incredible success I know I can be.  Just know my outift ... it's lycra, and its pink ..

xx

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[Tracy]

update of gym time ;)