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Tomorrow I am starting my sculpting!  This is a massive beginning for me as my whole gym dynamic is about to change, not that that it is a bad thing it's just that it will be different.  This seems to be the theme for my life at the moment - everything is changing and everything is different.  Let me tell you about it ...

Since running the marathon I have made peace with so many aspects of my life, the main one (as I mentioned previously) is with my body.  I still hold the respect that I found for it last Sunday, I'm not at war with myself anymore.  I am what I am - and I am good enough.  It feels nice to know that.  I don't need anyone else to recognise it for it to be true.  I have also realised the true value of my friends, the love, support and pride that was shown by them on the day was far, far more than I ever expected.  I hugged those whom I had never hugged, and they told me of their pride for what I had done.   I was uncomfortable with the praise but I was grateful for the company.  Through the marathon I have made friends with  lot of people who I previously only knew in passing.  What a gift.

TG I miss you too and I will be back on board ASAP - just bear with me until I get all this stuff sorted luvvie xx read on below for the following public service announcement ...

I have applied for a job.  I know this is the first anybody has really heard about it but the time is right to tell you all.  C and I made the joint decision and this decision will come at a price for us both; however we feel it is the best way to provide security for our family.  Yesterday my resume went to middle management at HWE mining, I have applied for a fly-in, fly-out position just outside of Newman to be a haul pack driver.  Roster will be 2 on 1 off.  I am nervous, scared and excited.  I will die a thousand deaths without my kids but I want better for them and this is the option we have chosen to provide that.  I daresay this will be one of the biggest challenges of my life, and no doubt one of the hardest things I will ever do - but life is all about change right now.  Hopefully I will get to finish my Cert III first, but if I get the call I have already talked to my lecturers about finishing with a little extra help working in with my roster. 

Now - enough of this sloppy shit.  Next post we are getting back to the light hearted stuff because all this heavy duty, soul searching crap is making me feel nauseous.   Besides, I need a good laugh as my whole world turns itself upside down.