Tomorrow I am starting my sculpting! This is a massive beginning for me as my whole gym dynamic is about to change, not that that it is a bad thing it's just that it will be different. This seems to be the theme for my life at the moment - everything is changing and everything is different. Let me tell you about it ...
Since running the marathon I have made peace with so many aspects of my life, the main one (as I mentioned previously) is with my body. I still hold the respect that I found for it last Sunday, I'm not at war with myself anymore. I am what I am - and I am good enough. It feels nice to know that. I don't need anyone else to recognise it for it to be true. I have also realised the true value of my friends, the love, support and pride that was shown by them on the day was far, far more than I ever expected. I hugged those whom I had never hugged, and they told me of their pride for what I had done. I was uncomfortable with the praise but I was grateful for the company. Through the marathon I have made friends with lot of people who I previously only knew in passing. What a gift.
TG I miss you too and I will be back on board ASAP - just bear with me until I get all this stuff sorted luvvie xx read on below for the following public service announcement ...
I have applied for a job. I know this is the first anybody has really heard about it but the time is right to tell you all. C and I made the joint decision and this decision will come at a price for us both; however we feel it is the best way to provide security for our family. Yesterday my resume went to middle management at HWE mining, I have applied for a fly-in, fly-out position just outside of Newman to be a haul pack driver. Roster will be 2 on 1 off. I am nervous, scared and excited. I will die a thousand deaths without my kids but I want better for them and this is the option we have chosen to provide that. I daresay this will be one of the biggest challenges of my life, and no doubt one of the hardest things I will ever do - but life is all about change right now. Hopefully I will get to finish my Cert III first, but if I get the call I have already talked to my lecturers about finishing with a little extra help working in with my roster.
Now - enough of this sloppy shit. Next post we are getting back to the light hearted stuff because all this heavy duty, soul searching crap is making me feel nauseous. Besides, I need a good laugh as my whole world turns itself upside down.
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